Yes thought about all of the above, too much. Essentially assimilated by the Borg before any consultation, little by little, it crept up on me - its kept me up so so many sleepless nights, nearly done for me. Anyway I can return to work soon, never felt so much love.
I've never been a NATO potato like my cold war spy brother rest his soul but I am a proud VET, one conflict and two wars, and proud to have looked after the likes RAF Halton & Headley Court - wasn't afraid of the Argentinians or Republican Guard so have no fears about the collective, and once patched up by our brilliant medics I can now rely on a happy lifetime with the best support ever - whatever I choose to do
Its the Dark Military humour that's kept me going mate.
I'm really so upset, they have stolen my limbo stick!
I mean, how low can you go?